Wednesday, October 19, 2011
182~
I don't know what's going on with me, with my emotions, with my head. They've just been so freakingly screwed up recently, making me do things I honestly didn't want I do. I left my emotions get the better of me, screwing up my relations with others, hurting and insulting others so unknowingly.
God knows how many times I've cried recently, I've lost count... Why do I keep acting without using my brains, doing ridiculous and hurting stuff to others and to regret it the next moment? Today has been the worst, just couldn't stop. When people talk to me, I'll just start all over again.
I don't know what's going on with me, with my emotions, with my head. They've just been so freakingly screwed up recently, making me do things I honestly didn't want I do. I left my emotions get the better of me, screwing up my relations with others, hurting and insulting others so unknowingly.
God knows how many times I've cried recently, I've lost count... Why do I keep acting without using my brains, doing ridiculous and hurting stuff to others and to regret it the next moment? Today has been the worst, just couldn't stop. When people talk to me, I'll just start all over again.
Brian, I'm really really sorry I let my emotions get the better of me today, and saying such stuff to you. I really didn't mean it at all. I know you could still be angry at me and all now, but just hopefully, u'll see this, though I doubt so, and understand. However, i don't expect you to forgive me at all. I know I was really mean and insensitive, so I'm really sorry. :(
If only I could back time, undo what I did, perhaps the mistakes will nt occur again. And perhaps, I could fix things and perhaps, everything would be how it should be? :'(
"we" is a thing of the past~ 9:37 PM.
