Tuesday, October 18, 2011
181~
I know you're sick and tired of enduring all these, you're sick and tired of feeling whenever i pair you up with people. I know it gets annoying over time, with you trying to explain things over and over again, but with me, acting like I don't really care, and shrugging it off. You hate it when people use my phone, to text you, to send you all those rubbish and ridiculous crap. Well, at least now you know how i felt that time. All these has happened to me before, and didn't you realize, you were a part of it. However, I'm not acting like this, as an act of revenge, nor to let you feel how I felt. I know it doesn't feel good, not at all.
Remember I told you before, the insecurity I feel whenever people close to me, mixes around with people I don't know? There you go. I highly think that this could be the reason why I'm acting like that. So, all these while, I've been pairing you up with others, not to agitate you, but perhaps to convince myself, to curb this insecurity.
I know, now, you may think I'm weird and all, having this weird source of insecurity of my friendships ties with others. Neither do I want to be like this, but I have no idea how to control it, as I have no idea what caused it.
So, after reading what you've said, I guess I do have to explain whats going on in the weirded head of mine. I know I've been a bitch, and I'm sorry for being one. So, hopefully you can understand, and 体谅, while I try my best to "save" this. I know this time I've gone overboard, and kinda caused things to become cold between us, and that's obviously not what I want. So I really wish that someday, things would be better between us, back to how it was. I know whatever I say now will not be of much use, but I just want to say "I'm Sorry", and "I did not mean it".
"we" is a thing of the past~ 8:04 PM.
